(“I Quit”– Episode 4)
It felt like my whole life had been spent being available to others, helping others, caring for others….and listening to others.
Now it had to become all about me.
I turned off my outside ears and turned on the inside ones.
Instead of listening to others I slowly learned to listen to me. To be honest I think “me” was initially in shock when I started doing this, after all I had always pretty much put myself last.
Me and myself had to learn a whole new way of going about things. I had to slow down a little bit, to be still and to start tuning into the me that sat behind the “busy mind’ version of myself.
I learned to sit.
(Sometimes for even more than a whole minute at a time!!)
And I began to listen.
I learned that behind the do-gooder, self-talk that had always run the “Me Show ” there was another Me, a more authentic Me, who had other things she wanted to say….
(Warning! Warning! Trouble Ahead…)
Yes, it appeared that finding my yes /no voice around boundaries with others was not the end of the vocal emergence.
It appeared there was more to come.
Quite a bit more in fact…
Authentic Me and my mouth were about to join forces, to start working in sync…. and they made a most interesting duo. Continue reading